“What is my next move?”
I keep asking myself, My God and my guides “What is my next move?”, Its a question that has lingered for a while now.
Whats the next career choice?
Should I concider more of the same as what I am doing, the answer I think is no, I find helpdesk work fulfilling to a point, getting someone’s computer connected to the internet or getting the website for the company hosted all fulfilling to a point, you get thanks but then your on to the next frustrated, upset, confused or downright mad customer and the cycle starts again. When I started here I was told about a previous Techie who got to the point where he shouted at customers, I never thought I would get to that point but everyday there is someone I want to shout at and thats not helping me in my home life, On Monday my wife Michelle who I love dearly bore the brunt of my moodswings so I ask the question again in relation to my career. “What is my next move?”
How can I relieve the stress at home?
I think taking care of my happiness would be a good start, sounds a little selfish at first but If I do things to improve my attitudes then I am better equipt to help those around me, lately I have days I just what to stay in bed and that helps no one.
A job that allows me to also be at home a little more and does not leave me so drained would be a start, its time to renevergise myself, Im going to Mens Bible Camp this weekend and I am hoping that will lift my spiritual self and give me the determination I need to make some decisions. Ive always believed if you dont like the situation your in then take steps to change it but I am not acting on this belief enough to move forward. Its driving me crazy. I also feel I want to contribute more, to society, to my home life, to my family, to my education, to my character, every day I dont do at least one of these is a day lost and that makes me sad.
I have some irons in the fire but the fire grows cold, I need to throw some fuel on the fire and grow, push my boundaries.
Any comments are welcomed!
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