Robert J Turner

I write this on the bus on the way into work after deciding I want to accept Christ into my heart for real, knowing how to do this is not something that comes easily, I firstly need to change myself to a point of acceptance and faith, take away all my previous beliefs that are obstructionary to my goal, as I write this I feel I am trying to control the situation and its not mine to control, here is my opening letter to Jesus….

Dear Jesus,

You are an awesome ruler of all, i however never see or feel you around me, what do i need to do to let you in to me, i feel I am inhibiting your ability to work in me, if i was brutally honest about myself, my thoughts and inner feelings I could easily let you in, I need your help in allowing me to break down and let you into my heart, The thought and sinful desires that touch my mind i want to wash away, fill me with your holy presents.

I have inapropriate sexual thoughts and i ask your forgiveness, i have feelings of annoyance and contempt to those around me and i ask your forgiveness.

Forgive me for every indisression i committed, i ask you to be washing my soul, my heart and mind clean of such things and lift my spirit so i can soar. I want to grow as a person, I want to climb, lord jesus, help me.

I want to improve my skills, i feel stuck, i need strength, i need you as my companion, my shoulder and my crutch.

I love u lord jesus, i love u lord jesus, i love u lord jesus, i love you lord jesus, i want to be with you lord jesus, i love you lord jesus, i trust in you lord jesus, i hunger for you in my life. I have such pent up anger, i have inner rage, i want to shout. help me. i love u lord jesus, i love you, be with me, support me. Amen